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title: Four hours
date: Thursday, November 22, 2007
time:9:26 PM

it takes 4 hours to travel ard singapore.
from one end to the other and back.

title: Manhattan
date: Tuesday, November 20, 2007
time:10:09 PM

Went to Plaza Sing's Manhattan Fish Market with class today after our last n final paper:D
Didn't exactly take a liking to the fish&chips, but at least the service was good.

And we caught STARDUST!
haha, initially i thought its about some outerspace galaxy war from the title.
But it turned out to be a fantasy fairytale-ending movie that leaves a warm fuzzy feeling in you :]

Shopped ard with the girls for their prom dresses, but the cathay basically only had a few handfuls of shops that are opened, so we pretty much strolled ard an empty mall><

Went to gym after that, which leaves me aching so excruciatingly now tt lactic acid beckons even as i type on the keyboard. my body's really NUA-ed during the past few mths!

Still planning on how to go about post-As life, with a long seven/eight mths to kill, i feel quite excited bout doing all the things tt i can do now:D
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Anw yep,

i think im a fucked-up person too
for doing all those fucked-up things to you.

its indeed ridiculous to believe that saying sorry would make the pain more bearable.
cause two rights cant make up for a wrong.

Guess i'd seen it coming all along,
but i thought tt maybe this time round, i could be different.
Seems like i'll always be the same. and things will always end up in this fucked-up way.

yet, what is it that i can do?

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date: Sunday, November 18, 2007
time:8:45 PM

It's like closing your eyes & bracing for a crash that never came.
Maybe a 'crash' isn't exactly the best metaphor for the end of A's:

Just imagine fireworks that made it high up into the sky, splutter futilely and fall back down.
"Hey! Where's the lovely explosion of colours?" you ask.

I've no answer too.
most probably im still in a dissociative state:X

SO much for mugging. i cant believe i survived a month that way.

Its been lonely in school. ppl reach, finish their papers, go home.
Not that it shouldnt be this way, in fact tts what happened for o's too.
but there's this sense of disconnection this time...
( anw you'll get it if you get what im tryin to say).

Little comforts would be in finding yihang & sometimes yanhan at the canteen table,
busride with mel to machritche bustop,
or catching nengjie and zhexi when they reach sch early.
and other than waikuan and kiam tt i see in the lbry,
the rest of the class seemed even more distant.
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anyway on a happy note!

Been studying with belly shuyi n von throughout this period-

it felt a bit awkward initially- them from rj and all taking bio lingo.
discussing about gene therapy, southern blotting or sth haha.

But by now the many days spent cramming in the lbry together made us rediscover the bonds that draw us together 4 yrs ago, and that still keeps us together now:]

It just feels good to strike up a conversation so naturally and let it go on and on and on without ever the need to search for the next/right words.

yep, so the 3 of you: Go kick ass for bio paper tmr k=D

& not forgetting my dearest simone n yc its been some time since we hang out, lets do it till we get sick of each other!

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TO you, i saw your post, let's just leave things as it already is now alright.
time to move on and look beyond the 'what ifs".
i said before tt im sorry and i mean it, still do.

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