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date: Sunday, February 25, 2007
time:8:45 PM

I left blogger's window open for almost 2 hours before i finally got started on this post...

was feeling really empty just now after trng...
im like drained.mentally.

cant believe what i was actually doing on waters just now.
that utter loss of control was shocking.
i dun even think i was paddling, more like slamming e paddle into e water.

i find myself thinking bout all sorts of irrelevant things during e racesets.
i think i focused more on my discomforts rather den on my strokes.

and yanhan had to bear wid my erratic pace n turbulent splashes.
what's more i snapped at her to keep her comments to herself.
WAD WAS I THINKING?!!

actually come to think of it i'd always assumed tt e front paddler is always harder to be.
but crap, on the bus just now i thought bout me n awyong last yr n i was e backpaddler.
and den i remembered how taxing it is to keep to your own flow of complete strokes AND to follow the pace of e person in front.

so ger pardon me for losing my cool on water...
i promise tt the nxt time things go wrong on water i'll see it frm ur perspective as well
n not MINE mine mine all e time=(

rahh. im not exactly those sweet cosy ppl who gives hugs n inspiring encouragements to their partners...and i guess my face was reallyreally GLUM just now in e toliet><
but im not angry or unhappy with u alright....

im just frustrated tt i cant get a sure footing in canoe aft so long.
its like one training my strokes can feel so powerful n e whole boat goes gliding
and im not even tired.
but come e nxt trng n suddenly the boats seems to be crawling so painfully and i end up exerting force with the wrong parts of e body, &goes home shagged.

i hate this inconsistency n lack of control.
but mostly im angry at myself.
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[edited]

found this clip on youtube.
Highlights of 2006 world champs.

k1.k2.k4.c1.c2 n even c4 i tink.

AWED
its seriously amazing =))

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date: Saturday, February 24, 2007
time:11:09 PM

I GOT LOCKED OUT OF E HOUSE!!!!!!!!!

and this morning my ah bu was still nagging:
"ah hui, ur keys HOR!ur keys OKAY!ur keys ORH!ur keys JI DE LEH"
(ask e person nearest to u to repeat e above 20++times to experience how i feel)

so jinx,
e more im reminded to do sth,e higher e tendency for me NOT to do so...><

BUT man, its horrid to wait for 6 whole hours wid nth to do, no place to go
before someone finally comes to ur rescue with a set of keys tt has nv looked more spectacular.

& e moment my sis opened e door, i rushed into e living room n flopped onto e sofa.
homesweethome=))
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Anyway today i had my interview skills workshop wid e canoegers:D
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we joined 06s71 and one of the guys called TANG YUAN happened to be tim yap's cousin!
wah.haha! MEI YUAN u got fight eh!!!

im seriously tickled by e dude's name...but hes nice overall though.

yep, so funnynames aside..

the workshop isnt as skills-oriented as i thought, cause almost two hours' spent on pathing your career choices.
but towards the end we did a demo interview which was quite fun :D

& its useful in e sense tt it exposes us to many channels to gain accessibilty to scholarship opportunities.

can go checkitout at www.brightsparks.com.sg if u r brainy n wants a scholarship!

dey even provide job offers....

ohYAH!
and this year during the refreshment break the school actually prepared CATERED FOOD
for us!

theres friedrice, bee hoon, nuggets, fishballs, sandwiches, cream puffs n brownies!

seriously i tink the J1s this year are really lucky...e school pampers em so much!
CATERED FOOD okay!

last yr we had to go get our own lunch at cutechicky (keaiji)
and the place would be jammed up cos everybody would crowd there><

im just jealous=x
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haha.nth to blog abt alr.

today's a boooring day.
the only exciting thing tt happened today was me practically stomping on this
poor guy's hand when he tried to help me pick up my green highlighter tt dropped onto e floor.

it dropped to under his chair n i was trying to retrieve it wid my flexible trusty muscular legs.
who knows he bent down to pick it up at e same time as i was trying to kick e highlighter
towards my side=S

so i STEPPED n squashed his hand.
haha.his face is really hilarious.

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date: Thursday, February 22, 2007
time:10:03 PM

I think i seriously possess a sickening attitude.
one tt i should get rid of before it ruins me
=(

this morning i woke up with a super bad mood.

yah---->imagine SUPER badmood.

and so i decided not to attend school.

partly cause basically i didnt get any of my econs maths or physics tutorials done...
NONEatall.yepp...
and partly cause thursday is a lonely day...theres maths remedial summore.

so i just turned off my phone
shut out e alarm
& dived my head under e pillows.

but my mum still managed to pull me outta my bed.
so i brushed my teeth combed my hair packed my bag changed into e sch uniform
and went out of e house.

actually i could hav stayed in e house if not for e coincidental fact tt my dad has no work today..
cos normally i just wait for em all to go to work n i'll proceed to slp><
(speaking of no work..my dad's in a super bad mood today as well.
he was yelling his hokkien rap agn just now when i came out of e bathroom n made e kitchen floor wet...)

anw so basically this morning i was loitering ard angmokio with no place to go.
dunno why i ended up there also..159 just happened to come first..

and so for e first time in my life.

i felt tt im really playing truant.

at least i wasnt in my sch uniform...but tts not e point.
e point is e feeling sucks n i sort of regretted ponning so impulsively.
guess im only good at escaping frm problems=(

anywae serene was v nice n kp smsing me to remind me bout alot of details.
u naggypok=P but v thoughtful though..
but i din feel like replying any of e msgs n shut off my phone=X

and u know wad....
when i reached home my mum greeted me wid my nice dinner n i felt just so so so
GUILTY.

later i'll still hav to come up wid a parent's letter.

i just wish tt i didnt hav to lie agn.

it really feels bad beyond words.
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anyway i took a nap in e noon n guess wad.
when i woke up e contact in my left eye disappeared!

initially i tot tt i rubbed it outta my eye n stupidly went searching for it on e bed...
aft e futile search i took off e other contact n wore my spects..

but during dinner time my left eye feel abit irritated but i still couldnt find my contact.

HORRORof HORRORS.

when i was bathing i couldnt stand it n pulled my eyelid n blinkblinklink.
den i felt sth.
i stood there for 20 mins blinking like an idiot before one edge of e contact appeared at e corner of my eye.
by then i was tearing like a waterfall...

can u imagine e contact actually got lost in my eye n went somewhere to e back of e eyeball.
DAMNdisgustingcan.

and chiaming actually told me its okay cos contact is protein n it'll disintegrate by itself!=.=
omg lah.

i SWEAR i'll take good care of my eyes frm now on=)))

so to everybody wearing contacts out there:

NEVER wear it to sleep!!!!!its bad for your eye><

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okay i go do my chem alr.bummer

hope tmr will be a better day=D

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date: Tuesday, February 20, 2007
time:11:27 PM

New Year's break is over!!><
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ohyah.tis is e class photo taken during newyear's celebration!=D
huiying n amanda came back=))
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okay back to the topic.
actually new yr isnt as exciting as i thought!
n my family didnt go ard house visiting tt much..

so there goes my angpowmoney=[

but one of my aunt was really generous..
haha.first time i received a $68 redpacket in my 17 yrs:D

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and not to forget...

my dear AHma commented tt i look like a "gek leng"!!!!!(meaning malay in hokkien)
on top of tt,my gugu said tt i look FATTER!!!!(okay tts true...)
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im so devastated lah.
*devastating look*
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n my cousins kp horrifying me wid scientific info about how e skin ages FIVE times faster under exposure to sunlight.

plus horrifying images of how my skin will get wrinkled when im only in my thirties=(
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TAI KE WU LE!!!!!!!

for all u know..gimme 2 more yrs n i'll be fairer den yingchern!!!wait n see!
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SO
tmr, it'll back to e mundane n hectic school life yet again.

but at e v least wednesday is my fav sch day of e week
so i guess tt's a consolation...
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anyway aft leaving my blog stagnant for so long,

i suddenly dunno where to start...
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so changed a new blogskin:))

i know its quite an old one, but its hard to find skins wid light background
dun really like those wid black stormy background so i settled for this...

n wanted to put up this song ：懂了by TANK..
its a NICE happy song!
but e html code seems to go awry=.=

& aft listening to his album online,
i finally understand why my sis goes GAGA over tank..
his songs arent bad.quite nai ting actually..

btw i cant believe how long i havent been listening to chinese songs lately..

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ohYAh!
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n this few days ive been slacking n hooked on to youtube agn=X

im now watching this show called WEIXIAO pasta :D

by zhangdongliang n cyndi....
e combi seems weird right.but its super cute n funny.
at least its a simple story w/o those scheming idiots n it makes me happy=))

its NICE!

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ohman its twelve.i'd beter go sleep!

tc ppl!

:))

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date: Thursday, February 08, 2007
time:11:39 AM

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MY COMP CRASHED.

just cause of me not shutting it down properly.

wad a temper it has.ROARS
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blog agn when i get the annoying box repaired!
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