
lauren|lihui
NTU-NIE Undergrad
Twenty
09 june
NTU ODAC
HC Canoe
Anderson SJAB
I will figure this one out on my own.
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HELLO EARTH im back! . Its been more than A MONTH since i last blogged. ` Hell.ONE WHOLE MONTH, how did i manage tt! ` anyway i guess its been long enough, n its time to dutifully post an entry before my sudden zeal ebbs away. ` ========================================== im thinking of a million things to jot down here- . wad happened during this hols, wad i did, wad i........ . but nah, in fact im actually more interested in how everybody's been doing. HOW ARE YOU?? . im serious! ive been busying myself wid work n trng so much tt ive not been in contact wid even e ppl in my class. . How freaking alienating! (picked tt up frm yt n soph) :( . BUT im ending work tis coming saturday, so YAYNESS! i see chalets n xmas gatherings coming my way=D ============================================= okay, actually i'd intended to post photos. i used to use photos to liven up this page,make it more appealing. . n ive a fren who just told me, " im too lazy to read lengthy entries, i just scroll n see e pics" . sry but for now i just wan ppl to read my words, cos at least it shows there r some value in em=D . ============================================== okay, . so far lifes been good,n i guess i can say my hols not been wasted:D ` ive to admit there was a period aft promos wherby i kindda succumbed to a minor depression. ` it just felt like it makes no difference if i'd just disappeared frm e face of e earth one day.n nobody would care... ` but tts like so pessimistic! how can lihui think like tt right right right!!!!! ` as e famous saying goes: the pessimist says e glass's half empty,n e optimist says e glass's half full. ` im sure lah, i say u're using e wrong damn glass-its obviously too BIG=P ` haha.now i just stay in e moment- if e moment's good, im happy :)) if its not, i let it pass. ` ============================================ working for e past one n half mths has given me some new perspectives, . last yr i was a 'newgal' in e company n e ppl i worked wid r merely acquaintances... . tis yr its kindda different.. since i returned i got to know most of em alot better.. n im really glad for all e gdness theyve shown me=)) . its funny how reality strikes u frm e back, n its funny how idealistic i was... ` i used to think tt: HEY! ppl go to gd schs, complete their education, land themselves a dreamjob, start a cosy family n live their boring life in reasonable living standards.. i mean this is singapore, how bad can it get?! but sadly no, not everybody go to gd schs, not everybody get e means to complete their education, not everybody land emselves a job, n not evrybody get e chance to start a family... actually KNOWING it n SEEING IT HAPPEN to ppl ard u is a stark contrast. . i see a 37yrold being trapped in a job tt he practically dread gg to every morning, working under his younger brother all his life. he deems himself helpless, n resigns to his so-called "FATE". . i see a 25yrold who tells me tt aft all these yrs, he still doesnt noe wad he wants to be n wad he can work as besides this.letting his youth just slip away. . i see a 18yrold who gave birth to a baby, e father fled back to china to escape responsibility n shes planning to raise e child wid no realistic plans for e future. . i see a 16yrold whose daddy owns an engineeringcompany n shes working so tt she can "buy nice xmas presents" for her frens. ============================================= . how life turns out for different ppl really fazed me... issit wid e choices we make? of issit just...life? . n i guess for every single choice we make, irregardless of e magnitude, WE are e ones tt's gonna eventually experience e outcome. . ============================================== AH DAMMIT!!! I STILL DUNNO WAD I WANNA BE IN FUTURE. . haha, i dunno why my frens just hav this inner calling.boo.im envious. ` alright, before i get incoherent wid e scramble of thoughts fighting their way outta my brain- . i shall send my love to shuyi.bels.mone.von.yc who've filled my hols wid plenty of laughter=D nv expected tt aft one yr of being scattered in diff jcs e bond just gets stronger. i realise tt im myself ard u gals..n being myself is v impt to me=) n i shall giv a big big hug to my teammates who've endured all these trngs wid me.. they'r e strongest bunch of gals ive seen. their determination n commitment just kept me gg when i feel like forgetting bout it. there's a difference btw knowing there r others ard u, n knowin tt you r ard others. it aint bout any one of us ,its bout ALL of us=D ============================================ ` oh.. n just a few days back i went to help wrap xmas presents for e residents of chershire home ...n e week before dey were making e xmas cards... . it was not some glamorous volunteer work of interacting wid e residents or raising huge amt of funds to make improvements.....its some behind-e-scene work in a room. . BUT yet it managed to bring together a grp of ex-andersonians on a bright sunny afternoon. . e significance of it all kindda touched me........ . how else n in wad circumstance can u find such a weird combi of ppl together? . ade,clar,von,zhaoliang,zhiwen,waikuan,vanessa, bifang,shiyun... . im amazed. n im happy to see all these ppl agn=) ================================================ ` alright! . i shall thus end this friggin lengthy entry with... A callout for a CLASS XMAS PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!! . i miss e 66 ppl, esp e gals=(( . i bet none of em even knows wad colour my hair is now! . kay, gdnight my head's hitting e pillows in 60seconds. . ===================================== |
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